Ranting.

I think I might need to go on a bit of a rant. Perhaps do a bit of venting. I have been so happy in the past 3-4 months I would change nothing. I have two great jobs. Live with some great guys. Have an awesome girlfriend. Things are going good. I can't help but look for things wrong with all this though. I blame myself for everything and I need to stop doing that. I always think i'm the problem. For example. I like to spend money and I still have debt from dropping out of school. So no matter how much money i'm making it will never be enough... for me. Living with my brother and two good friends is great. But at time the house is never clean enough, things don't get put away in quite the right places ect, ect.... for me. My girlfriend is more than gorgeous. She's smart and funny and I really could not ask for anything more in a person who wants to spend time with me. She lives 3.5 hours away. We talk as much as we can but sometimes we have to go, sometimes we run out of things to say. Sometimes I feel like I suffocate her with my strong feelings. I need to lay off. Keep the friendship in tact without forgetting about the relationship. Coming out of a one year long relationship, I guess I just naturally cling on to her like I was probably used to. We are opposites in that sense; she has been living a single life for a long time and worrying about that other person isn't first nature to her. As much as she may think about me in a day she doesn't text me right away like I am used to doing to her. With me it's the other way around. I want everything I think, do and see to be known to her, I don't even know why. I don't expect her to do the same thing back to me yet I push forward. I'm not perfect, nobody is. The thing is that, I'm really independent and I am my own person. I cannot forget that. I don't want to ruin what we have because I might be left with a chip on my shoulder and am self conscious about things. With time it will only get better or worse. The thing that I truly like about Brittainy the most is that we are both very honest people. When we feel something is up, it gets talked about unlike last relationship where shit just got swept under the rug, it should never be like that. That was hell. I feel i've suffered the pain of heartbreak only to move on. With Britt, I'm doing just that. I was lucky to find her. The timing may not be perfect with distance and all but we have both made it known that we want this to work. Together we are great. I enjoy that feeling.

I guess the moral of all this is that I am happy and I have everything i've ever wanted. I need to stop looking at the negative things and just enjoy everything that i've been blessed with. Sounds pretty preaching and I don't mean for it to be, but I'm not certain how else to put it.

A Look Into What I Do.

I'm sitting here at work this morning, which should actually be my day off. I'm on my first of four days off from the Mudd shop, however due to some deadlines I came into Eagle's to finish up some work. I decided to show you guys (and girls) what exactly I do here. Or at least some of what I do. Not only do I design ads, I've done shirt designs, logos, hats, and various other things, most of which is racing related. Here; I've taken some of the ads i've designed for the company, shrunk them down and you can see them below. I've made all of these using Adobe Photoshop CS2 on my 17" G5 iMac. Everything is from scratch and the photography is 100% all done by me. Enjoy. Perhaps let me know what you think. Thanks.

BUSY!

Wow, since i've been working at this new job it seems my life has been in fast forward. I don't know why but, it seems like I have no time for this blog or anything really. Perhaps i'm consumed with just a few things in my life, such as work, my awesome girlfriend, my new camera and skateboarding; leaving everything else to fall short and suffer. Those things would include a clean house, internet sites I used to frequently visit, laundry, to do lists I have.... the list goes on. In short I feel like I am falling behind both with tasks I'd like to get done and perhaps even finically. Oh well, live everyday to the fullest. Don't worry about tomorrow. I am having a great time and am been happier than I have ever been in my life. I feel great! Some news.... been skating lots and filming with the 7D lots. Still some things I want to add to my growing kit. Pics to come soon. I got a tattoo in Winnipeg two weekends ago. I got a serious chemical burn from Caustic Soda on my right hand/wrist at work last week. The snow is melting here! Saw my girlfriend for 3 days this week and she's coming here tomorrow night for two days. Pumped! I feel like I could type for days, but seeing how I am at work I really shouldn't. I haven't been at this Office job for about 2 weeks and have a lot of designing to do for some upcoming ad campaigns. I bought some new things in Winnipeg last weekend on top of the tattoo, perhaps I'll update this later tonight.... we'll see how the night goes. I have some funny films to shoot in the future. Keep checking my Facebook and YouTube for new videos. Uploaded some new photos on Flickr this morning. Yeah... so check em all out. Sorry this is so sporadic, choppy and rushed, but I'm fighting to get this done as quick as possible. I'll leave you with a photo I took while in Winnipeg the other day. Bloggers and blog readers; I give you my girlfriend (Brittainy) and I. :)